Gracious God words can not even begin to express where I am right now. You see into the depths of my heart. You see the pain I am feeling. You see the sadness. You see the frustration. You also see the hope. You see the confidence. You see the peace. You know even better than I do what is swirling around inside of me.
I desire to see great repentance and revival sweep across my church. There are so many who seem to have their eyes blinded. They can not even see clearly what is right in front of them. I know You have a great and mighty plan for this church. I believe we are at a major fork in the road and how this church handles certain issues in the immediate future will greatly impact how she will be able to function in the future. I know that You have not given up on UBC. There are days that I have wanted to simply give up the good fight but I know You have not abandoned this church and because of that I can not abandon this church. This is the place You have lead my family to and it is where we will stay until You move us (if You ever do).
I have not been the best husband of late and for this I ask Your forgiveness. I deeply desire to be Your kind of husband. I feel as though I am learning so many things about what that means yet the more I learn the more I see how much I fail. Keep showing me. Keep teaching me. I am sorry that I have failed You and that I have failed Angie.
So many hurting people. Why does it continue? When will it stop? Will ever get any better?
Show me Your vision for my family! Sow me Your vision for this church! Show me Your vision for the students! Show others these same visions and allow us to come together to work towards these visions. I pray for Your supernatural unity.
You are a mighty and awesome God! I praise You for how You restore people and how You change their lives. I praise You for how You have changed my life. I praise You for loving me in site of my sin. I praise You for wrapping Your arms around when I need that the most. I praise You for the rest You give to the weary. I praise You for even allowing to live much less come before Your throne. You are truly awesome in this place my mighty God!
