Dear God, I am not where I need to be. I want to be in the place where I want to just be with You. I haven't been there in a long time. You know my fears. You know what holds me back better than I do. Remove all of those things that do. Remove the barriers. Open my eyes to see the opportunity that it is before me. Show me the path that leads to simply wanting to be in Your presence. I know that hear my prayer. I know You see my heart and my mind. You know the weariness. You know about the desire to quit. You know the sense that I cannot fail. You know the pressure I feel. You know that my mind has answer to these things but my heart is not satisfied my the answers. Change this in me. Change this is however You see fit. Open my heart and my mind to the change.
You are God alone. Only You can do this. Only You can take me to the place that I need to be. I trust and believe that You will. I know that You will answer this prayer because You have promised us that You hear and and answer all of our prayers. I may never fully see how You answer and work all of this out but I know that You will. You have to or You are not who You say that You are. My heart cries out to You this night.
As I write this my mind things of so many others who need You. I think of Emily and James, Barb, Josh and Danielle, Brittany, Deanna, Rosie and so many others. You know so much more about them and their needs. Touch them deep in their souls. Draw out the lost to Your side. Bring the wandering back to You their Master just as I know You will bring me back.
God I come before by the only means possible and that is through the shed blood of Christ.
